Stop The Y.E.S.(Youth Execution System)! Are You Prepared #19

Maliha- ok crispen let's get to work finding her

Kendal-(leaps up and follows the guard to the room and once she sees strife smile so widely her cheeks hurt. Runs forward not caring about what the guard says and hugs strife tightly, her one hand going into his hair and the other around his back) strife...I'm so glad your here

crispin - hops up onto her shoulder. well we're checkin the ...mental hospital first right? or whatever it is. I'm not quite sure whats its actually called and what its actually for but I've passed over it multiple times.


strife - a wave of relief floods over him and his whole body feels 10x's warmer, rather than the lonely cold that seems to suffocate him the longer he's by himself. wraps his arms around her tightly breathing in her scent and smiling. me too.

Thought we gonna do them fighting

Kendal- (after easy conversation finally brings up the thing she has been waiting about) so...did you find out anything? Did you do some digging around base? I need to know what their doing at those hospitals.

strife - stares at her for a moment becoming uncomfortable. well I've been kinda..busy lately..

Kendal- a little bothered but isn't mad) oh? With what?

strife - oh uh, been um hanging out with neer and serena and stuff. offers a small smile. the research isn't really a top priority right now but ill get to it...

Kendal- (narrows eyes) the research isn't a top priority? Strife people could be dying, hell people probably are dying because every where we go the yes seems to follow. Neer and Serena are friends sure but we need to stop what's going on at those mental institutions. (Is almost growling) if you won't do it because your to busy then tell Bri to ce next time

strife - feels a lot guiltier now that she puts it like that and cringes a bit. well i'm...iim nnot bbbusy, i'm just...was going to say he was really worried about serena but he already knows Kendal would tell him that Neer isn't bad and he needs to let them be. but now he's worried about both of them, and need's condition as well. can't believe he's actually worried about him now...he starts to zone out pondering about this forgetting they're having a serious conversation.

Kendal- (looses her patience, a small partof her wishing it was him on here and her out there, at least she can concentrate and get thins done, she thinks) strife what the hell! You can at least have the decency to pay attention to me when you come to visit me in prison

strife - jumps, startled now feeling awful for zoning out. he's been doing it a lot lately. is a little taken aback by how she's reacting.  kendal. yyyou didd...ddidn't have to ttturn yourself in.

Kendal- (huffs angrily) we'll some one had to! of no one did then there would be a trial and we all would be found guilty and put in here, I'm sorry I think of other people strife (doesn't mean to say any of these things but feels bitter after not getting many phone calls and having to do the gross jobs)

strife - he hadn't meant to sound the way he did, or really thought through what he said and kendals words make him cringe. he does think of others. thats the reason he had forgotten to do what she said. but then again maybe he really is just a jerk and what he did was wrong. 
guard - yells out that they got 2 more minutes.
strife - bites on his lip running a hand through his hair and then clasping it in his other hand on his lap. shakes his head. what he did wasn't wrong or right and kendal is overreacting. wwwell it seems your just the better person here aren't you. nnneers been tearing apppart serenna and i wwas making assure he wouulldnt hurt her again. bbut what the ffuck ever now beeecaause she's gone and heee's wanting to kill himself like before, even iff he hasssnt said it himself. his lip quivers as he goes on more angrily. i can't juggle two jobs at once.
guard - times up! visitors out!

kendal-wait-no! grabs strifes wrist and the guard comes running over, yanking her to her feet and starts to pull her away. her feet skid across the ground strife...hey i'm sorry alright. sighs and follows the guard dont worry bout me, just forget im even here ok? tries to smile but that didnt come out how she wanted it to and as she opens her mouth while the guard pushes her out the door, it shuts in her face

strife - gulps unmoving glancing at her once more before she's lead away out of sight. bites his bottom lip feeling like he's going to be sick and quickly gets out of there. now he's even mover stressed out than before and he feels like such an idiot despite what she said at the end. not so much what the bickering was about but the way kendal looked at him while she was angry. she's never been like that with him before and he was nervous they were drift apart before and now he's almost positive thats the case.

Kendal- (immediately runs to the phone after the guard lets her go and waits her turn, finally steps up and dials strides number, praying for him to pick up)

strife - by now he's in a taxi going back, looking out the window when his phone buzzes but he ignores it not wanting to answer it inside a taxi and too nervous to see who it is.

kendal- when he doesnt pick up just hangs the phone back up and sighs, leaning against the wall wanting to smack herself in the face

strife - can barely speak when he tries to thank the taxi driver. has him drop him off in town. he doesn't want to go back to his room because he doesn't want to feel like he's alone again. he's done that too much and he's sick of it, at least out in public theres distraction. it starts to drizzle but he continues to walk along gazing at all the shops as he passes by. finally pulls out his phone texts serena not realizing she probably doesn't have it with her: hey you get to where you were going to alright?

serena- curled up in her room, hears a tiny buzzing and doesnt know what that could be, almost ready to call security but then realizes she brought her phone along and gets up, searching through a bunch of drawers and finds it. is glad its strife and texts back yeah i'm here. knows she shouldnt do this but cant help it does neer know?

Strife -  is glad to hear she's alright. Takes a seat otside a bakery at a small table for two and replies. I dont think so. He's kind of a mess. Frowns thinking about it now wonderign what neers doing and mentally slaps himself. You just acted like a jerk in front of kendal and now your doing it again, not even thinking about her. Scowls.

Seoond italics is his mind btw...

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serena- sighs and presses the phone close to her chest, thinking about neer. she knew he would react like that, but its hard to hear it. if you see neer soon, tell him I'm alright? please

serena- holy shit! cheeseburgers! almost groans at the smell as she waits in line. the lunch lady slaps on a big burger for her and piles on everything she can get. sees a group of older ladys that are in her ward that are fun to talk to sometimes. she's feels better, physically and maybe even mentally. of course she's lonely so its been her mission to talk to literally everyone she sees to make up for the lack of neers. sometimes feels like crap and sometimes feels like she could beat up an entire army. has taken to practicing yoga with a class and doesnt talk much during her support groups but listens, and likes to listen. goes outside a lot and plays basketball with a bunch of other people and has also made a mission to taking every single class, trying to find what she likes. loves talking to the old ladies though, especially about neer. when shes with them it doesnt feel like their crazy, it feels like her and neer are a normal dysfunctional couple who love eachother but just cant keep their shit straight, the one lady tells her they need balance. only one of them can be crazy and the another tells her he's shitty but she just rolls her eyes and explains 'no neers...well neers nice...to me.' its only been a couple days, and the ladies have told he rnot to call him until its been at least a month so has held off, but every time she sees the phone or sees a hint of light hair something inside of her breaks. she still hsd those days, everyone does. sometimes she'll sit inside and cry cry cry all day, she didnt eat at all that one day and the other she screamed till her throat felt raw because she thought she heard someone whispering 'you're next' in her ear. but sometimes she thinks she'll be ok.


naveah- she didnt mean to avoid zeppelin, like her life, things happen. she never knows what her feelings are feeling, so when she catches zeps eyes she cant tell if the warmth in her stomach is love or what she had for lunch. she trusts him, she trusts him, but somehow she doesnt. how can she believe that he loves her? how can she believe that she loves him? its been months and every day is better but also worse and she's terrible at being subtle, she doesnt want to hurt him when she purposefully makes an excuse to leave and then goes to he brothers office to complain. she's sitting in the kitchen, wondering what the hell happened to their tiny family, why is it so broken and messed up? it was always messed up, but never this sort of messed up. she hasnt seen bri in a week, kendals in jail, fox is who knows where, she hasnt even heard zero and fallon giggling in what feels like years. her ear hurts sometimes, like a weird sort of burning. especially at night. she wants to curl up into zeppelin and tell him, to talk like they used to. but know she knows he's not just zeppelin, he's leslie. but she thinks he's been leslie ever since he took that bullet for her. she doesnt love zeppelin, she loves leslie, but her brain has an issue where those sort of feelings are not to be released. 

fox - he hasn't been doing too bad lately, he doesn't like the concealing sessions because it makes him feel guilty for some reason. Maybe a small part of him feel s guilty because he knows Tao is suffering silently without him, and that he just wants him to be his nurse, or his dr. whereas these people can only get so close to you. H tries not to think about that when he's there though because he misses Tao a lot. Though he feels a lot better in some ways, he feel alike he's lost a lot of who he was. The first time he'd sobered up it seemed like his retreat was just being foolish and being funny and smiling at everyone to convince himself he was all good again, but this time he just doesn't have the energy anymore. Every once in a while he'll have some kind of seizure due to his smoking problems and he'll have to use a tank for a day or two but that doesn't happen often. He refuses to let them cut his hair short even though they keep telling him it would make his hair look nice and tidy and handsome. He knows Tao likes his wild hair and it's finally grown out since he cut the colored parts off so he only lets them trim it despite the thinning patches around his scalp. he sits down with his tray at the table letting out a series of coughs causing audrey to fan away from herself as if the spit is surrounding her and fox rolls his eyes.
bob - is in line but keeps veering off and then going back to the back of the line convinced they'll think he's cutting  every time.


neer - he's at the bar right now in a t shirt and jeans his eyes surrounded by clouds of grey. thought it would be funny if he's try what normal people do when they're miserable and have a drink but he finds the alcohol to taste horrible and barely drinks any of it just sitting there thinking and trying to convince himself that he's doing okay and that serenas just a person but then he feels awful for thinking of her as just that and he's lost at the counter looking like someone on drugs that hasn't stopped gazing in front of him for over an hour.


zeppelin - he's starting to think he had just fooled himself into thinking he loved naveah but then he thinks better of it because he knows he does. he just wishes so much he'd kept his mouth shut. he can feel the tension, even though he knows neither of them are mad at each other, or dislike each other but he gets more fidgety every day. finally brings himself to speak aloud casually.  hey uh nav...i was thinkin'...his hand crutches the back of his neck awkwardly. what if we uh took a break for a while. winces not wanting it to sound like he's breaking up with her but he knows thats what he's doing. still friendly and all! just like...idk maybe i could get a separate room if you wanted to be with bri or something....gulps.

serena- sits down next to an older lady that she loves to bother hello rosanne, beth, jackie, and ms. lin. how are all you lovely ladies today? takes a huge bite out of her burger, trying to shove down that sinking feeling in her stomach
rosanne- someones awful chipper today
jackie- did you steal somebody's morphine or somethin

naveah- sitting on the couch with a magazine in her hands. feels her throat close up but clears it and tries not to think about crying. keeps staring at the magazine and answers back casually. why would i want to move?

becka- appears as a bartender but instead looks just like serena. the apron is snug against her waist and hips and her shirt is tight fitting, her big boots clunk around as she mixes a drink and slides it over to the person next to neer. becka's allusion serena has her hair in a messy braid down her back, her hands look beat up and her eyes have make up smudged around them

beth - you could use her attitude ms. lin. grins a half teeth filled smile.
ms. lin - scowls. lovely ladies...grumbles under her breath.
beth - dear be careful i wouldn't want you becoming old so quick sitting with us all the time. but i would like your opinion on which kind of yarn i should use for the hat I'm knitting. taps her fingers together smiling at serena.
ms. lin - sighs knowing the hat looks more like an odd sock so far.

zeppelin - bites his tongue starting to regret saying anything once again moving his hands around everywhere as he talks. no i mean...like..o..YOU don't have to go, i'd like get a room or something unless you wanted to thats totally fine too i could keep this one but it bought that maybe you were thinking you wanted to be with your best friend and not me cause like we're...uh...we're.... bites on his lower lip  folding and unfolding his hands not able to put right sounding sentences together continuing talking just as fast as before. j-just if you ever want to like stop this its um okay with me, i just wanted to let you know. y-yea know your not obligated to do anything.

neer - jumps in the bar stool earning a couple weird looks hone stiffens trying not to draw anymore attention. feels like he might just crumble his insides twisting and turning and his mind completely changing its state. what happened to her? is that makeup? have people been touching her? messing with her? why is she working here... starts to become angry wanting to teach a lesson to anyone who has even spoken to this women in the bar.